Tech week. That says it all to a thespian. Twelve hour work days, awkward high-intensity rehearsals with orchestra, start and stops for lights to dial the visual in, and entire days spend in the grand dark depths of the theatre, missing once again, the sun's path across the sky.

If I haven't written about my most recent spagyric studies, it's because I've been writing in my mind. This intense rehearsal schedule, the TBS tv pilot I shot mid-week, and just keeping food in my belly and clean clothes on my performer limbs has taken all I've got. I have not stopped my spagyric study, but rather wrote my Book of Shadows in my consciousness until I could put it down in pixelated print. I seem calm, but annoyed on Mondays. I am seen as assertive and independent on Tuesdays. Magickal things usually happen to me on Wednesdays. Tangible things happen for me on Thursdays. And on Fridays, I am sensual and life gets a little easier.

I've been placing a few drops of Al-Qemi's spagyric magesteries under my tongue before even water, while still in bed, every morning. I've been meditating, while in a half-waking state, on the spagyric's intangible effects. And during this third week of study, I've found that I am reaching a deeper level of interaction with the spagyric. It's as if before, I was expecting to receive something from the magestery. But now I am tasting it. And taking in the life force of the original teacher plant. I can read through the correlated planetary effects and pick out the personality of the starter plant. The magesteries simultaneously all began to taste exceptionally good. In a non-food way. I am tasting character. I am getting to know the plants themselves in a very clear, present, active way.

So much fun in studying what you are drawn to. In high school this smarty pants took college math and linguistics, but as soon as I valedictorianed my diploma, I never set foot in a traditional classroom again. I may not have attended university, but how many of my friends who did - for any portion of time - are still passionately directing their own learning towards whatitis that they are drawn to. This mind - midwife of reality - is strong, like any muscle, when it is being worked. I take acting, vocal, dance, yoga and pilates classes. I read about endangered species, spiritual philosophy, magickal technique and I also read lots of screenplays. I study subtle correlations between daily experience and the things others forget to pay attention to. I try new things. I like learning new things.

So all this subtlety and intensity has culminated in a weekend of tech rehearsal. And I've never felt better. I feel on top of the world, doing what I love, laughing with the people I see every day, exercising my fitness and emotional expression by performing in the theatre. Oh, the pride a theatre performer doth privilege.

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