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I had to wait until 3am on November 15th, 2014 for a moment alone. And now I hardly know what to do with it.
I’m compelled to play my drum kit, burried under set pieces and props from my latest production; quite difficult to undress as of current. I’d like to lie quiet on the floor if I could find it. Unfortunately, if I lie on my back and close my eyes I either bound right back up upon recollection of a mandate I am response-able to or fall swiftly, hypnotically and gratefully asleep.
I gave it all. For the same reason I am in the studio every day. Still to this day. I gave it all because there’s something about trying and succeeding. One day you can do no pull ups. One day you can do five with perfect technique. That’s why I go to the studio. That’s why I design acts. That’s why I produce shows. It’s an idea or an impulse, then it’s a conversation, then you’re not sure how, then you figure it out, devote yourself to the work and embellish it with flair.
Creativity as health.
Well, that was it. Alone time turns to sleep, equally rare and dragging me into a king sized bed.
With black hair! Recognize me as STAR? Now available to watch practically everywhere you look! The Butchers (aka Death Factory overseas) is now on iTunes, Vudu, Amazon, DirectTV, Hulu and more…
LA Weekly covered Tonya Kay’s Pinup Pole Show with an exciting 58 slide photo documentary, compliments photographer Nanette Gonzalez. View the entire LA Weekly photo doc here. And check out the highlights below!
We did it! Tonya Kay’s Pinup Pole Show reached our fund raising goal! And in the meantime, this whole thing has brought some very unexpected lessons about community, generosity and self-value to my life. You see, this was my first time “asking” for help. Specifically funds. And probably like a lot of you, it’s hard to ask. But I made myself because the dream was big enough. I was willing to go to the scary place, look in the mirror and … grow.
So I asked. And every time $10 or $500 would be contributed, I felt a deep – and I mean sincerely heartfelt – wave of gratitude. Of reciprocated celebration. Like there was a team and we were all in this together. Like others were excited too and this is fun for all of us. I looked forword to updating my team of contributors and I hoped they were excited to hear from me, too!
Somewhere between asking and succeeding, I got the dreaded and unexpected growth lesson and it was this: the only reason I (or anyone) would be reluctant to ask for help is if I believed that it was a one-way transaction. If I was the only one receiving, asking would be like begging and who wants to feel like that? But if I recognize value in myself, I can recognize that I am giving as well as receiving. By not asking, I am basically saying I don’t think I have anything to give back. By asking, I acknowledge how much I do generously share of myself and commit to sharing more. Fund raising taught me that the true spirit of asking lies in self-respect.
So from the bottom of my heart, thank each and every one of you for being here. Thank you for believing in me and sharing enthusiasm. Thank you for taking your own risks and choosing to grow. It’s not over. It’s just begun. You are valuable…
And here we go! It’s happening and it’s happening next weekend. I’d like to invite you to the debut performance of Tonya Kay’s Pinup Pole Show Nov 8th in North Hollywood, CA! We’ve got classic cars, we’ve got celebrity guests, we’ve got prize sponsors, coverage by LA Weekly and the most talented pinup pole dancers in town. If you are in or near Los Angeles, get your tickets to our Nov 8th debut here before we sell out. And come celebrate all the generosity, vision and enthusiasm that has went into putting this production together. Together!
With love and respect, Tonya Kay
The generous support of these people through our
IndieGoGo fund raising campaign are the reason this show exists.
and many anonymous contributors
thank you all
The Artist, returns to Seraph Film’s Horror Haiku series in her most verbal performance yet! Horror Haiku is in it’s fourth disturbing season and The Artist recurrs with the biggest torture set up she’s used on her gentleman callers yet.
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